It’s really hard to move forward when you haven’t completed the past. I don’t want anything to stand in our way, so I want to address some important things by first saying that I am sorry. I may not have always acted like it, but I love you and I really care about you. I know I spoke in harsh tones and used some unkind words at times, but underneath my anger was always the fear that you didn’t love me the way I love you. Fear caused me to be irrational at times. Anxiety fueled my imagination and I accused you of some things without cause. I misjudged your intentions because I was afraid of getting hurt.
There is so much more I can say about why I was afraid, but what really matters right now is for me to say that I am sorry for the pain I caused you. I take 100% responsibility for my words and actions. I expected you to do things the way that I do. I expected you to speak my love language without giving you the opportunity to learn. I wanted you to move on my timeline without trying to understand why you moved the way you did. I didn’t show you all the appreciation you deserved. I withheld affection because I didn’t know if I would get it back. I didn’t give myself freely because I feared that you would reject me.
I didn’t give you a chance. I can see that you are beautiful inside and out but I allowed my fears to control me. On behalf of myself and every other woman who hurt you, I am sorry.